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Jun. 1st, 2003 | 10:43 pm
mood: gloomygloomy
music: Easy Lover, over the loud store intercom

I'm scared. I'm feeling it again -- that feeling that she's supposed to be here, that we're supposed to be together. The feeling that I would turn and tell her something in the most ordinary of ways, that this ordinary moment, standing here in the produce section of the grocery store, is a shared one. But she's not here. I'm scared because of why she is not here. I'm not enough. I'm too much. But mostly that I am not in control of my life.

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from: mitya000
date: Jun. 2nd, 2003 05:53 am (UTC)
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In time you will learn to be comfortable with yourself again. I have the same feelings. After 4 years with my ex, I sometimes wonder why she isn't right behind me. The problem is to hold yourself off until you are over her enough before getting into a new relationship. It's tempting, though.

I am sorry you are gloomy and wish I could do something to help. I am going to have a tarantino movie night soon and you are extremely invited. =)

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